[he’s thinking about his brother. sometimes the nicest man he’s ever met. sometimes the meanest. sometimes the most competent, the most disastrous, the most worrying. he wonders what the hidden strata under their four-month-three-week relationship is like, much as he does at some point in every single day of his life]
It’s not like the way Aster thinks belongs in one single box, or that he might not be having some of the same thoughts as you sometimes, maybe just deeper down, maybe in places he doesn’t wanna talk about. Maybe the inverse is true for you. Same for Nettle. Same for Snow. Same for whoever. Even if they one hundred percent don’t act the same way you might up top, or logic it the same way out loud, darker thoughts and intrusive thoughts are a thing.
I guess what I'm trying to say is... it's not that hard for me to hear that I'm too young for this or that. You're not the first. You won't be the last.
It's just—novel. Adults on this boat are about 500000% more protective over kids than I'm used to.
Re: day 220
[he’s thinking about his brother. sometimes the nicest man he’s ever met. sometimes the meanest. sometimes the most competent, the most disastrous, the most worrying. he wonders what the hidden strata under their four-month-three-week relationship is like, much as he does at some point in every single day of his life]
It’s not like the way Aster thinks belongs in one single box, or that he might not be having some of the same thoughts as you sometimes, maybe just deeper down, maybe in places he doesn’t wanna talk about. Maybe the inverse is true for you. Same for Nettle. Same for Snow. Same for whoever. Even if they one hundred percent don’t act the same way you might up top, or logic it the same way out loud, darker thoughts and intrusive thoughts are a thing.
Everyone’s just…doing their best, you know?
Re: day 220
I guess what I'm trying to say is... it's not that hard for me to hear that I'm too young for this or that. You're not the first. You won't be the last.
It's just—novel. Adults on this boat are about 500000% more protective over kids than I'm used to.
Re: day 220
I'm just saying you have time.
Re: day 220
[ shakes his head ]
I get it. Thanks.
[ genuine, without bitterness or heat ]
Re: day 220
Feel any better, or still about the same?
Re: day 220
I'm not sure. Talking didn't make things worse. And hanging out's pretty... nice?
Re: day 220